Layered Fragments, Becoming Whole

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The thing about armor

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A bowl as a hat 
Snipped right across for inky strands to hit
No. 2 pencil below eyebrows
Slim cat eyes catches light
a mirror image
Staring at each other
A promise made under lock and key
to survive

As time moved forward
Living became heavy velvet drapes in deep summer
fog drifting through years not yet unbearable
Beauty came in seashell-sized packages
We never did build that armor well…

In starts and stops the marble rolled
Personas that fit for some time, then discarded like old clothes
Never quite right, lacking… Depth

It was our permeability, porous like aging skin
The kind that can be destroyed with a light touch
Synapses painfully sensitive, no wrapping
Leaving tattered pieces mourning in the wind

Lost on winding roads to places not meant for us
other broken souls,
unknowingly sending signals for a particular kind of
s t e a d y presence
Receiving, accepting c r u m b s,
blind destruction, missing… Width

A specific kind of fragile iron
Easy to s h a t t e r
whole enough for a while…

Until I sat with the sharp
Dissected it like a corpse
then found you there

We sat together
holding hands in our parallel universe
I let go of the armor
Giving you the reins to guide
finally h o m e
safe enough to bloom
little me was set free