Layered Fragments, Becoming Whole

I hold 
polished crystals 
Five spheres meant to ground me 
Curling them into my palm 
Like a whispered prayer 

Breathing deep to draw from 
these sealed pieces of earth 
My mind wanders to phantom lips 
Brushing against 
s w e e t c r e a m y m u s k 
Sticky petals  
O p e n i n g 
helplessly 
The gripping fear of l o s i n g myself 
In you 
pushing me c l o s e r to 
S o f t violence 

Breathe 
h e a v y

I toss them on mahogany 
Like hail clattering 
Skidding down the length
Into stillness 
Iridescent prisms 
melding into sun beams 
casting shadows that form 
Aura amethyst, Botswana agate, 
Aquamarine, Rose quartz, 
Selenite, for cleansing 

My lips tremble in this pause 
The w e i g h t 
Of you 
P r e s s i n g into the pit of my stomach 
Rising into my chest
Escaping up my t h r o a t 
Only to 
E x p a n d 
And settle into my skin, like silk 
Pores open 
seeping back into me, 
In that same breath 

I wondered…

Was there ever a different way to 
F a l l 
For you