Layered Fragments, Becoming Whole

Hello lune luna,  

This invisible tether never leaves, 
muted at times – 
presence lingers, 
like imprints of hot heavy hands 
searing skin  
a wild inferno on my velvet drapes, burning
Smoke blurring torment and liberation
the heat coaxing me in my hazed state, 
to fall into a thick slumber  
This time to find that in my core layer  
I was very much a- l- i- v- e  
buried in the shape of my own dimmed light,  
resembling a rotting corpse  
I finally woke up, painfully 
red-eyed and slow  
to find  

little moon  

of eons ago
brilliant for Pluto  
I revere you for refusing to be small 
Your presence points to galaxies more --  

My hope landing on chains, 
adorned before 
mirrored ties existed  

Now locked in a lonely room, 
suffocating.  

I wish to be set free
 
Cosmic timing, 
Where do you begin?  
and where do I end? 
Like the rhythm of the ocean,  
My soul in tune with one frequency,  
surfing waves by moonlight, 
enveloping me, soft as silk   

To drift onto a shipwrecked island,  
 as if made for me

I’m afraid to stay,  
terrified to sink into this way of being  

What was gifted this year  
Hurts   

Always yours...