Layered Fragments, Becoming Whole

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Sticky Orange Cluster Phobic

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I use a serrated knife 
to saw a bagel lengthwise
as the edge of metal lodges
into b o u n c y gluten
I remember
the flowers in the bag
parched
my hand leaves the knife
warped bread
not whole
not cut through
completely
The scar sits below my pinky
half an inch
right at the bone
once, a little girl
picked up apple juice in thick glass
r a n
tripped
smashing glass in s l o w motion
to fall fast
soft belly into broken glass
knees in sticky juice, sliding
metallic sweet
a fat shard stuck in my hand
I don't remember tears
I remember the white glint
of narrowed
eyes

Afraid of trouble
with mom

Today
I run my finger along the scar
a groove
parting the skin sea
and find comfort
in the deformity

The same lesson
I haven’t yet learned