Layered Fragments, Becoming Whole

The bud g r e w
unconscious of me
I shivered deeper
as it may be
seething.
soaking in how I stuffed it down
inside a cold dark chest
locked
decades
with only glimpses
of nourishment
how many times have I abandoned you?
me.
That day you threw me
into the brick wall
the wind flew through my body
as I ricocheted into the mud
slow-motion
I laughed
and my lungs rerouted you back out as a i r
dazed.
as the light floats
in
blinks out
became.
a scattering of dancing stars
luminously
my lips curl up/
this is what it is to alive.